Jul
29
As depressed as I’ve been, it would be a bad time to think about starting any new relationships. So why bother rewriting our relationship agreements, which really only kick in when we get involved with someone new?
This may sound silly, but having anything left outdated offends me. That really is part of it.
But really, writing up such things because you’re wanting to get involved with a particular someone NOW is touchier. You’re very likely to unconsciously twist things to favor that person, rather than thinking neutrally.
There are always people Sam is involved with, or on the edges of involvement with. It’s something I try to accept. I knew soon after meeting him that it’s natural, and would always be so. There are now, including someone who he has been involved with, who is still on the “yes” list.
It’s not the case for me—not anymore, anyway. It was at one time, when I was more outgoing, when I had the energy to be.
So one of us, at least, will be neutral. One will be as neutral as he can ever be, which is pretty good, considering.
We have more data now than the last time, having a few more years of experience, observation, and input from others. It can only get better.
Cyn
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